More than a decade ago, I started out on my mothering journey with a simple premise: I was going to love the little baby growing inside of me like no one else could.

Friday, May 22, 2015

Can't we just hang out and snuggle?

We had a late night, after a busy day. But, it's Friday, woohoo! Alexi thinks we should hang out and snuggle. I agree, great idea. Alas... I have things to do. Shoes to find, clothes to put on, and children to shuttle.

Three weeks to summer vacation. Three. Weeks. It's like a mantra.  "I can get through the rest of the year. It's only 'N' more days..."

Maybe I will open the tent trailer this weekend and just hide in there.  Alexi can come too.

Thursday, May 21, 2015

Good Stress, bad stress

I was an intense kid, in a lot of ways. I felt life intensely, at least, even if you couldn't see it from the outside. I've gotten better, but still experience the world with intensity. This can be a good thing, but as my mama used to say, "Good stress, bad stress, it's all stress."

Twenty two days until vacation. I'm 80% or more ready. I can't wait to go see my Mama. And my sister, niece, the Papa, and in-laws. But mostly my Mama. It's good stress. But still stress.

So I'm brewing up a plan. I am going to go exercise at the gym today. And then I am going to release the expectation that I can control the next three weeks. I will focus on the next thing, on the right now, and remember that no matter how many times I review our plans, it will not make the time pass faster, or guarantee that those plans will go smoothly.

And with that, I need to get my kids ready for school!

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Another school year nearly gone

The upcoming weekend is Memorial Day Weekend, which means the school year is nearly over. I've neglected my blog for over a year, in spite of intentions to resurrect it. Now it is a morning in mid May, with my savoring a soy latte and trying to pause before the busyness of my day begins.

I'm relieved to be wrapping up the school year. I've been caught off guard by how much there is to do, and the errands to run, now that I no longer have any wee babes. Most often, it is unrelenting. The children are all well and happy, and I am grateful. Yet, I long for days of nothing to do but enjoy existing.

This summer is 23 days away. I'm ready.

Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Tap tap tap... Hello?

Its been a LONG while since I have done any blogging. Over the past couple years, I've primarily posted snippets of my life over on Facebook, and done the occasional personal journal (sharing only with select few if desired). I'm stepping back from Facebook for the moment though, as I reassess my life and health, so thought I might hang out in here. 

Therefore...  Hello! Anyone else around? :-)

Saturday, June 22, 2013

Sunday, February 10, 2013

10 Things I have Learned in the Last Six Weeks

In no particular order, a few things I have learned over the past six weeks:

- Sugar and Starch are not so great for my body.  They seem to promote inflammation and bloating.

- I am reactive to Black Pepper.  Bummer!  No wonder I was getting burning, searing stomach pain "Every time I eat!"  We're still not clear on nightshades, so time will tell.

- I don't particularly like turkey broth.

- I do like wild salmon.  Yum!

- Salt is amazing.  Like, really.

- Also amazing? L-glutamine.  I feel like my life is being transformed.  I will refrain from giving you the gruesome details, but I will say that my digestive system is much happier these days.  I mix it with some broth a few times a day. I was scared I would react to it, as I get terrible migraines with vomiting from MSG.  My ND reassured me that it should not cause that kind of reaction, and to my great relief, it hasn't! Quite the opposite in fact.

- Not amazing? Bovine colostrum.  I know it can be a miracle product for some folks, but I am no less allergic to cow colostrum than I am cow milk.  The sooner I wrap my brain around the fact that I can *never*cheat and eat cheese or milk chocolate without consequences, the better off I will be.

- I can, in fact, survive without coffee, soy lattes, and chocolate.  However, the withdrawal process is absolutely brutal.  Even after the initial physical symptoms had passed, I wanted the earth to open up and swallow me whole for a week or two.

- It takes more than a few days to recover from chronic autoimmune conditions.  Even when you go into a regimen expecting it to take months, it can be brutal.  

And the big one:
- Waking up with a glimmer of hope is a huge step.  If I can have even one day at baseline, it means that there may be more of those days in my future.

Thanks to my family and friends who have been giving me so much moral support in my attempts to find health and wellness.

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Happy New Year?

I haven't been online much. We had some birthdays, and Gift as, and winter break. Then right back into the swing of things. School, homeschool, appointments, et al. It's busy around here.

And I am tired. On January 1st I started an elimination diet. I've been struggling with stomach pain, and intestinal distress, and other unpleasant symptoms for a while. It finally got bad enough that I was willing to do whatever it takes to figure out why my body was going haywire. I gotta be honest. Three weeks in, and this diet still sucks.

The basics are built around Whole 9 | Whole 30. No grains. No sugars or sweeteners. No Dairy. And the tough one- no legumes.  That didn't sound so bad. Meat, veggies, eggs, broth, and healthy fats.  Well, it was, because veggies have been triggering tummy pain. And eating had gotten scary. So my "safe list" for the first week was turkey, lamb, and coconut.  Do you know how old it gets to eat 3 foods plain? Ugh. And tea. Lots of tea to wean off my caffeine habit.

So I am 3 weeks in. I am less bloated. But still tired. Eggs are out. Nightshades are out. Both spinach and chard were ugly. My energy is up and down. My mood.... Eh.  I really just want to feel well. I am happy not to have searing stomach pain anymore, every time I eat. I'm a bit lonely and tired of not knowing what's going on with my body.

In happier news, my children are delightful. My oldest is doing riding lessons again, which she loves. My 4 yo has started vision therapy, and that's a lot of fun. My youngest, now 2, is quite the personality. She loves playing with her sister. They are having a blast with the duplos she got for Giftmas.  My son seems to be doing well in school. My 10 yo is a busy girl, interested in art, drama, science and Lego. I'm happy her school meets her needs so well.

We have so much to look forward to this year.