More than a decade ago, I started out on my mothering journey with a simple premise: I was going to love the little baby growing inside of me like no one else could.

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Just being Mama

I haven't felt up to writing much lately.  I had plans to submit posts to a couple blog carnivals this week.  Though I had ideas and thoughts I wanted to share, I never got around to it.  I've been busy just being Mama.  We returned home from visiting family in the Midwest.  It was a wonderful, wonderful trip.  I am beyond thankful that my husband was willing to take that time off to be with us and our extended family.  However, since we've been back, I've felt a bit like I've been drifting around in a daze.  Not quite back in my groove, needing a bit more sleep than usual, stepping away from the computer to connect with my loved ones...  Needing to get caught up on laundry and housework, and prepping for birthdays and Giftmas, but not quite up to the task.

My only son, my third child, is about to turn 8.  Somehow, that feels huge.  In a few weeks, my baby will be turning two. I gave her crib away today, to a mom who needed it.  I didn't cry when she left, but I would be lying if I said I wasn't sad.  My babies are all growing up.  Next year all but my youngest will be school age.  I find myself wanting to savor my time as the Mama, before I graduate to "Mom" and occasionally "Mother." (Complete with eye roll, of course!)

Time feels short.  As fantastic as it was visiting with family, it really hammered home how short life it.  Before I know it, my youngest child could be getting married, jetting off to Tahiti, and building their own creative life.  I am so, so blessed to have these amazing people in my life.  My children, my parents, my grandparents, and my friends, especially my husband.  I hope to find, this winter, better balance not just in my busy schedule, but in my life, my soul, my every breath.

To all of my family and friends, and the friends I haven't met yet, I wish you peace and love this winter season.